Though I have not been posting much on my acting career, I am slowly but surely working towards my goal. On Thursday I had an interview with The Agency to be considered for representation! The interview ended with me being told they would love to represent me, and I have a contract in my hand waiting for my signature. One signing of my name is all it will take...my hesitation, this changes everything. Really it kind of scares me, and I'm a little intimidated by the thought.
I've been thinking a lot about it, and I didn't quite realize the things I might have to give up to pursue this dream of mine. Thinking ahead, can I justify auditioning for things like Renaissance Festival and community theatre when it would limit my availability for paying gigs (which will be my primary source of income)? If this is the career I want to follow, then it will be a part of my job to make myself ready for an audition at the drop of a hat. I see now the separation this will put between my acting friends and I. While they are all getting ready for a number of auditions (Renaissance Festival, musicals, plays), I stand by kind of saddened by the fact that I'm not going to be joining some of my best friends
At the start of this blog my main concern had been in having a corporate job and the strictures of that lifestyle as well as leaving it behind with the benefits it offered. Being laid-off made that decision for me, and I am a little thankful for that. However, this time the decision to change another part of my life for this dream is completely in my hands.
Once again I find myself standing on the precipice of an infinite plane of possibilities. All I need to do is to pick a direction and take a step. All things are possible from here.
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I've been reading through your posts and I know I haven't been a very good friend by posting anything to them. So, I thought I'd sit down and leave you a little message. I know we don't see each other much anymore or get a chance to talk, but I just wanted to tell you how SUPER proud I am of you and what you're doing. I'm so excited for you. I get a chance to see your journey and the positive, amazing steps you're taking towards this goal. I can't wait to hear more great news!!
ReplyDeleteThis is very similar to what I had to decide upon when choosing a college. Would I stay in KC, and be comfortable doing RenFest throughout college, and only end up with a job that's barely related to fashion? Or grit my teeth and go to New York where I would have to actually prove to myself that I'm good enough to do what I want in life.
ReplyDeleteNow with you, you have a similar choice. Don't accept the representation, or take it on a limited contract, and stay comfortable doing RenFest and community theatre productions with a majority of the cast not even close to as talented as you, thus bringing you down? Or do you sign and accept, finally giving yourself a chance to do what you've always wanted, become a PROFESSIONAL actor.
In my opinion (which is the only one I care about) If you want to be a professional actor, sign and go with it. Sitting still and doing community theatre and small scale productions isn't professional, it's a hobby. I'll miss you a lot out at faire, and so will many others,but you're doing what's best for you, not just you as you feel now, but you, so that you can look back in 50 years and think "I totally made the right choice, I'm happy I did that". I think if you decide to hesitate and continue just doing community theatre as a hobby while droning on at a 9-5 job to supplement that hobby, you won't be happy with yourself later on.
And just to reiterate what we talked about last night, the difficult decision is only difficult because what you really want requires huge sacrifice. But to get to this goal of yours sacrifice is imperitive, it's the only way that you can reach your dream.
ReplyDeleteI understand why you might want to weigh your options of representation. But if you truly think that The Agency is as good as you say that they are, then your hesitation should only be brief...and sign the damn thing already!