Back in the Gym

I've finally made a point to start making it back into the gym! Sad news, I was back up to 160lbs. Good news, just a couple weeks of being good and it is dropping back off (158lbs as of an hour ago)! I've also decided that it is now time to start working on building muscle! The goal is to do this without adding too much weight, and with a little research I think I've developed a workout that will do that. Only time will tell!

As for everything else, I have a meeting tomorrow for the cable pilot to finalize contracts and meet everybody. Also, I did not end up auditioning for "Mercy House Split". The reason is that it does not start filming till November, and here I've been talking about moving out west before that. It may not be set in stone, but I don't need to make excuses to stay.The good part is that I am still involved with the film. I'm helping Scott find locations for all the scenes, so if you get an email asking if I can use your apartment/house, that's why! Just kidding...or am I?

One last note: The premier of Paragon will be sometime late September/ October, as soon as I know I'll invite everyone!

Hello Opportunity

I met with a man today who has offered me a role in a Cable Pilot! The double bonus of this is that it is for a show on how actors are trained. He is going to have 14 actors (being themselves) who will be recorded during this Masters Class! If the pilot does not get picked up, no pay. However, we still get the training! I don't see much of a down side here.

On top of that, I have an Audition for "Mercy House Split", a murder mystery film being done by the same director as "Paragon". Again, no pay, but still experience.

*BTW if you would like to audition for "Mercy House Split", auditions are Sunday the 30th of May at the Plaza Branch Library from 2-6. Email Scott Kessler at CreativeThreatFilms@hotmail.com!

Quote

"Anyone brave enough to attempt a life in the arts belongs there. Use that scary feeling to guide you to the risks that will keep you vital. Even if the scary thing is sitting for a photographer. Artists need to keep risking."

-Markus Flanagan

Getting off Track

Well as you can obviously tell by the lack of posts, I've been busy. I wish I could say that it was all with acting, but the opposite is the truth. I lost my role in "The Truth About Why", which made me very sad, but I've moved on and managed to maintain the friendships I started with that project. I'm still working 2 jobs, and I'm going to be getting a couple serving shifts at Eden Alley, which is great because I could use the money, but sad because it's not acting.

Lately I feel like I have to spend so much time just making sure I can afford to live day to day, that I don't have any left for my dream. The Acting front has gone quieter than a winter's night in the middle of Kansas, and I haven't heard of any auditions from my Agent since the Lee Jeans gig (which I also haven't heard from). People keep telling me about theater auditions, but I don't want to do theater! It is so different from film, and takes up so much time that I'm afraid I'd miss an opportunity, or already have a commitment and miss out.

I just have to keep reminding myself that everything I'm doing right now I'm doing as a means. I have this grand goal, my target. It's the size of a pea sitting miles away, and to hit it I have to remain focused. 

Turning 26

"How is it to be 26?"

"Do you feel any different?"

To answer both questions...it feels the same. I made it through 25, and it was a year of growth and change. It was at 25 that I made the decision to pursue my dreams, due what it takes to make myself happy and content with life, and live every day not only as the last day but as the best. I truly discovered the power of "I can", and have used it as much as possible. I have made leaps and bounds toward my Acting goal, and I have 25 to thank for that.

However, something tells me 26 will be more than I can even expect. I've come to a few realizations lately that are giving me a different outlook. I still want to be an actor more than anything, and I will do whatever I can to pursue that. But do I have to do it here...can I do it here? I've felt the need to travel, move, or change for some time now, it's no secret, I tell everyone. There always seems to be an excuse to stay here though; I've built my life here, all my friends and my families are here, I just got everything I own and I can't afford to move. But the truth is, I'm just afraid to do it. Fear of the unknown, of being alone. But maybe the time is coming. I can sell my possessions and make the money I need to travel. There are cheap alternatives in larger cities for people looking to build a new life. I have friends everywhere, and I built this site to keep in touch with the ones I don't see day to day.

No worries of this happening soon, I have a few obligations that will keep me around KC for a while longer, but who knows what this year will hold. 26 looks to be an adventurous year full of possibility.

Lee Jeans

So I went in for a modeling audition with Lee Jeans today. They were looking for a model for their 32x32 Fit mens jeans, and everyone who's been going in has been to big for them. So my agent called me and had me go cause I'm a 31x32, just to give it a try. Guess what...I'm too skinny! They said my seat line (butt) looked great, perfect length on the inseam, but they were too loose around my waist! However, because of the first two parts, they will call me when they shoot for their 31x32's!!! They're not sure when that will be, but being on hold is better than being shot down right!?!

Getting Older

Let me preface this by saying that I know I'm still young, but keep reading and you'll see why I say I'm getting older. I have finally made it back into the library after a week of being unable to walk here! Closing down "Evil Dead" the musical Monday night was not healthy for me; I threw my back out! What is this!?! I'm going to be 26 in a couple of weeks, how did I manage to throw my back out? I have felt more like an invalid this past week than I ever have in my life! Tuesday moring I could barely get myself out of bed (it took 5 minutes just to sit up!), and I'm still having troubles walking long distances.

On the plus side, I am no longer unemployed! I am now working Mon. Wed. Thur. from 2 to 4 at Pickerman's Soups and Sandwiches in Brookside, so come in and visit!

Adding this on Tuesday the 16th! I also just got hired on at Eden Alley as a Host! I start training tomorrow morning before I go work at Pickermans! Yay for 2 jobs!!!